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wake up, sun shining through window onto face. chilly floor, not uncomfortable. making breakfast, call from dad. Heart jumps and drops. call back. Mother's mother is dying, we don't know how long........what do we do?...arrangements, travel. Sadness, tears, acceptance and back again.
Change court date, no hassle. Look at calendar....supposed to be at work an hour ago. Call work. Shower. Leave. Remember this woman, this strong woman, funny woman in memories. Realize no more waving from the porch, no more garden walks, empty thanksgiving, christmas eve....want to let go, is inevitable, not ready yet. Maybe convince her to reincarnate into my unborn child's body.
choose between paying speeding ticket and paying electric bill. Pay speeding ticket.
Enjoy sunset. Love life. Love life more because of death. Post blog.
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