homeward bound
Sometime around 8 or so hours from now, 36 years ago, my mama delivered me into the living breathing material realm. Thanks mom.
It has been such a lovely life and it keeps getting better.
Today, I realized a dream I have been working toward since 2008. Every star I wished on, all the sacrifices made.......
From putting the house on the market, only to watch the market crash, dealing with banks and government for 2 insane years, to end in total loss anyway.......to selling and giving away everything, saying goodbye to my babies....only to have to leave paradise after a year with my heart completely broken. Then Sydney. Stress. And to working longer hours than are possible, stuffing myself into a box far too small and building something like contentment from that. But it always looked more like waiting. Waiting for freedom to make it back to her. The only place that has ever felt like home.
On this birthday, the one I knew would be most magical of all those so far......
I was in the shower and the thought crossed my mind that maybe my residency would be granted today. And I thought immediately that that was impossible. I was dreaming. But if it did happen, if it were to be true, then I would know for sure without doubt that I was magic, that it was all true what I hoped about the world and my path. And then she told me, on the phone, that yes I had permanent residency. And for sure I know the Universe is shining her bright face on me. I am warm and healed.
Free At Last
Someday soon I will belong again to that green island, for good this time. Heaven isn't too far away.
It has been such a lovely life and it keeps getting better.
Today, I realized a dream I have been working toward since 2008. Every star I wished on, all the sacrifices made.......
From putting the house on the market, only to watch the market crash, dealing with banks and government for 2 insane years, to end in total loss anyway.......to selling and giving away everything, saying goodbye to my babies....only to have to leave paradise after a year with my heart completely broken. Then Sydney. Stress. And to working longer hours than are possible, stuffing myself into a box far too small and building something like contentment from that. But it always looked more like waiting. Waiting for freedom to make it back to her. The only place that has ever felt like home.
On this birthday, the one I knew would be most magical of all those so far......
I was in the shower and the thought crossed my mind that maybe my residency would be granted today. And I thought immediately that that was impossible. I was dreaming. But if it did happen, if it were to be true, then I would know for sure without doubt that I was magic, that it was all true what I hoped about the world and my path. And then she told me, on the phone, that yes I had permanent residency. And for sure I know the Universe is shining her bright face on me. I am warm and healed.
Free At Last
Someday soon I will belong again to that green island, for good this time. Heaven isn't too far away.
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