Trade off

This past year, and the one before it have been filled with enormous work efforts.  Long hours and chewing big bites. 
  I don't enjoy admitting limitations,  but I can clearly see written in my body the price for all this driving effort. 
Spending so much energy to make money that I have nothing left for any other pursuit is dampening my creativity, killing the healing connection in my work and dulling my brain.  And it's harming my body. 
   So, this coming year I would like to ask Sophia for some help with the leap.  I'm smart enough to do this.  I need to let go of a victim mentality and undramatically grab the reins of my own goat chariot.   But I want to REALIZE the truth deeply, not just intellectually as I have just done. 
  It's my year.  The year of the horse.   Here's to riding it happily off in to the sunset.  Several times.