Shaking

Emotional. 
  I have recently recovered from a pretty bad bout with the flu, today was my first yoga practice where I felt good and strong and back in my body. 
   And then this afternoon,  I have come up against some other infection in my head, right side, achy and feverish.  

On top of that, the energy in the flat has taken a thick uncomfortable turn. 
I am sitting processing all of it, the pain in my body and tears come.  But softly.  And silently.  And then they evaporate.  
  I am not in a supported environment.  
And, I begin to slowly realize just how unhealthy this might be for me. 

I just had a week on my own and.....hmmm.
     Its not anyone else's fault.   Its just a matter of what to do, what I can do.  What's the best thing to do? 

And I don't know.

 
  I've had the thought that I could use some alone time in the wild.  This could coax the voice.

But do I have time for a moment alone in the wild? 
     I must.