O my god. Is there any way out of this? We humans seem to be just intelligent enough to get into trouble, but not out of it. Me included. I heard an excerpt from Louis CK's show today where he was talking a friend out of suicide. He said life isn't something that belongs to us, it's something we participate in. He told his friend, in his abrasive way, to wake up, take and drink of water and keep trying like the rest of us do. Responsibility. This desire to check out, to exit the stage, it's weak and childish. There must be a reserve I can tap into to pick up. To move forward. Mistakes have been made. That may be all that has ever been true. How lucky I have been for the chance to participate at all. Long may it last.