loved you better

When I think about those terrible moments in the past when I acted from anger or frustration or pain and I hurt those I loved...............
When Seffie killed the chickens.
When Chaska dug up the garden.
When April read instead of talking to me.
When Chris rolled over and went to sleep instead of resolving with me. Or let the candle burn onto the new runner.
When Jaime called me when she was drunk.
When Synara threw me off.

And I feel how my reactions to those events just exist as they do, unchangeable.

The truth rises up like a bubble in a honey jar.


I could have loved them better.

But I could not have loved them more.